#TO TOUCH THIS MAN HE HATED SO MUCH.
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Do you think at some point Hoffman like, tells Strahm How he got there? Like that the Baxter trap was before he was even an apprentice, his relationship with his sister, etc. And he just ends up fucking bawling because she was all he had and then the asshole that murdered her got out on a technicality, how it made sense, to kill him That Way, using a trap? To torture him for it. Even if he doesn't really acknowledge the appeal that John held for him then, being completely alone and being given a Purpose framed as a way to make people pay when they otherwise wouldn't, to make them face justice, he's just sobbing because it's all been misery and being alone even with John and Amanda and Strahm can't help but feel for him and just ends up holding him and hating everything that lead Hoffman to that point.
#I WISH I WASN'T HIGH SO I COULD ACTUALLY VERBALIZE THE FUCKING WAY I FEEL RIGHT NOW#I THINK THIS SHOULD BE THEIR LIKE. FIRST NON-HOSTILE MOMENT#NEITHER WOULD HAVE EVER EXPECTED IT#BUT HOFFMAN SHARES THIS PART OF HIMSELF AND DESPITE FEELING ONLY AGGRESSION TOWARDS HIM UNTIL THAT VERY MOMENT#STRAHM FINDS HIMSELF REACHING TO RUB HOFFMAN ON THE BACK. TO CARD A HAND GENTLY THROUGH HIS HAIR.#TO TOUCH THIS MAN HE HATED SO MUCH.#anyways!#greymosskin#correspondence
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~ a little something about Dazai surprising you on your day off ~
Dazai's not by any means an early riser... That is unless he gets to see you that day.
It's 8 AM and he's tapping his fingers against his pant leg lightly, but he's actually really anxious and impatient. Heâs waiting for you to open the front door and flash him that life changing smile of yours heâs been coveting for all week. Todayâs your day off and he's decided to come over and spend the day with you so he can cherish every single moment, totally not because heâs slacking off work and wants to do the only other thing he does with his life other than avoid his responsibilities: Be the bane of your existence. You also have a nasty little habit of being a workaholic and he's here to break that once and for all. He's completely spaced out now, lips pursed and brows slightly furrowed in thought when suddenlyâ
You finally open the door. His angel, his everything. He immediately switches his whole demeanor, eyes twinkling as he scans your figure. Youâre still in pajamas, and your hair looks messy. You look absolutely delectable for someone who just woke up to 3 missed calls and 10 texts. Dazai smirks as he leans in, wiggling his brows in an exaggerated manner.
"Well look whoâs finally awake! What a sleepy little thing you are. Makes me jealous of that stupid bed of yours⌠Did you get my texts? Come here."
He looms over you in the middle of the doorway, kissing you softly, tenderly and hungrily.
You blink, and before you can catch your bearings youâre interrupted by the softness of his eager lips. If your mouth opens, heâs pouncing. After a few moments of uninterrupted bliss, you pull back, eyes still drowsy and breathing a bit shallow. You yawn, running your fingers through your bedhead.
âSorry. I, um⌠was still asleep until now. I was trying to sleep in-â
He gasps, and tilts his head, as if baffled by this.
âNow why would you do that when we have plans today?â
â... We donât, though?â
Dazai laughs, dismissing your rightful confusion. He knows you guys never discussed plans, he just doesn't care. He lightly pinches your nose in between his fingers.
âWe do! Itâs why I let you sleep in for a few extra hours before coming over.â
You lazily swat at him, crinkling your nose. Heâs swooning! Dazai feels a jolt of electricity through his body upon seeing the way you respond to his doting. Making you flustered is his favorite entertainment, besides suicide of course.
âBut itâs 8 AM.â
âExactly! Thatâs like half the day."
"... How long have you been up for?â
He rolls his eyes affectionately as he buffs his knuckles on his tan coat, replying with a nonchalant hum.
âHmm, not importantâ Whatâs for breakfast?â
He lets himself into your apartment and you sigh into a defeated smile that somehow still holds affection for this ridiculous man. You follow him as he strides to the kitchen and fold your arms across your chest.
âYou know, Iâm kinda grumpy right now. Itâs too early, Osamu. I need my sleep."
âAnd might I say you look absolutely stunning when youâre grumpy? How ever did I get this luckyâŚâ
âKeep it up and Iâll get even worse, you goofball.â
Dazai smiles, itâs sly and dangerous. A challenge, he hears? He pretends to think for a moment, his finger placed on his lips as if really contemplating something. Heâs just picturing what youâd look like yelling at him. Heavenly, of course. He flashes you a tender smile as if you just said the most romantic thing and curls his arm around your waist, whispering.
âOoh, then I canât wait to see worse.~â
You roll your eyes, unable to help the pink hue spreading over your face. Maybe you're still half asleep, maybe youâre just hopelessly in love with him. Either way youâre screwed. You whine with a hint of annoyance.
âOsamuuuuâŚâ
Oh how he loves when you say his name like that. Maybe itâs time for you two to skip breakfast, he already does anyway, but he knows you actually need nutrients to function. He replies in a singsong voice.
âYeeesss?â
âIâm making pancakes and you are going to sit down and wait.â
You point at the kitchen counter trying to be stern, and of course, failing miserably.
He looks back at the stool and then back at you. He leans within inches of your face, his nose poking yours. He clicks his tongue disapprovingly and winks.
âNo can do, cutie~â
You two spend the morning making breakfast, or at least trying to. YOU are trying to, anyway. Everytime you go to gather ingredients, heâs already handing them to you. When your back is turned to him, you feel his arms snaking around you as you flip pancakes unevenly due to the distracting trail of kisses he's leaving down your neck. You secretly smile to yourself whenever youâre not feigning irritation, you know he loves the banter⌠Why not indulge the poor man?
You serve two plates and sit down, along with two mugs of coffee. Dazai isnât allowed to have caffeine around you, but once again, you took pity on him today for some reason⌠or is it his mystifying persuasion manipulation at play here? He takes a sip of his mug and a satisfying âAhhâ releases soon after. He flickers his eyes towards you as you're about to sip yours as well, and itâs like the world stops. His pupils dilate and he watches intently as the rim reaches your lips, resting his chin on his palm as he leans lazily over the counter. Heâs like a dog watching its owner adoringly. During his trance-like state, he thinks about how if you lived together this would be his every day routine. He could get used to watching you drink coffee and eat food. You'd wake up next to each other and hold hands as you watch the sun rise. He would tell you how breathtaking you look with bedhead and make you late for work after failing to keep his hands to himself. Maybe then you wouldn't think he's such an impenetrable wall of secrets. He wonders if there's a future where all of that happens... He snaps out of it, and murmurs.
âCan I have a taste?â
You perk up and look over, tilting your head to the side, amused.
âWhat, the coffee? You have your own.â
Heâs so focused now, staring at your full lips, thinking of a proper answer. He wants to tell you that he's never had intimate moments like these with anyone else and he doesnât know how long itâll last before his luck with you runs out, that heâs afraid youâll see right through his one dimensional facade and leave him for good. That you wonât follow him to his untimely demise should he ever fall, so he has to capture every second of it so he can keep you in his mind forever. He has to lock you up in his heart and throw away the key, otherwise becoming a man of virtue loses all its meaning.
Instead, he opts for the less complicated route, the corners of his lips curling up into a coy smile as he places a gentle hand on your thigh.
âNo, your lips, dummy. I want to taste the coffee off of your lips.â
There are no words for the audacity of Osamu Dazai and the feelings thrashing inside you when he says things like that. You smile bashfully and look away, unable to accept his shameless flirting.
âYouâre so weird, OsamuâŚâ
âMm, I'm so yours. No takesies backsies.~"
You slowly meet his gaze, his watchful eyes that ooze devotion practically holding yours hostage⌠God, you are so beautiful to him. Before you can even register it, Dazai scoops you up bridal style and carries you to the living room, laying you down on the soft couch. His eyes darken as he looks down at you, his fingers tracing the outline of your lips. As soon as you show him the look of love that gives him the consent heâs looking for, he doesnât think twice about it. He grabs your chin and pulls you into a messy kiss. He kisses you rough, his tongue almost immediately sliding into your mouth as he moans into you. His moans turn into whimpers, like he's been starved of touch for far too long and you're satiating the hunger. He needs to taste the coffee you just drank, and he wants you to know exactly how much he's been aching for this moment. For your much needed day off. For you.
He keeps his hand at your chin, pressing you down deeper into the couch with his hips grinding against yours as he tastes the acidity of the coffee along with the honey you sweetened it with.
Finally, when you literally cannot breathe, you pull away with your dazed and blissed out expression, all red in the face just like he loves. You mumble in between pants.
âWaitâ So... What exactly was the plan for today?â
He looks up from running his tongue along your jawline and flashes you that infamously deceptive smile he perpetually keeps on his face, tapping his index finger on your cheek. His voice comes out in a breathy whisper.
âBreakfast.â
â.. But we already had breakfast.â
He sighs deeply and his finger ghosts its way from your cheek down to the waistband of your pajama bottoms as he needily mumbles in your ear.
âStill hungry.. Iâm a growing boy, you know.~â
You let out a breathless laugh, shaking your head.
"You're going to tire me, Osamu.. Work wears me out enough as is-"
He wiggles a finger at you, face full of sickening desire as he carefully lowers his head down by your stomach, resting his cheek on your soft flesh. He murmurs in that soft pleading way that drives you insane when he combos it with his reverent touch.
"Listen to me, please. No more work talk... No more stressing out your pretty self, okay? I haaaaate demanding jobs. It only takes you away from me."
You look down and simply nod, your eyes trained on the way he looks at you from under his lashes and the soft brown hair that frames his face. Your heart races with anticipation as a smile slowly creeps up onto your lips. You don't need words for what comes next.
For the rest of the day, he makes sure you have the best time off, it's the least he can do as your incredibly attentive and not selfish at all boyfriend! A day where you can shut out all thoughts of work... along with literally anything else that doesn't relate to him.
Unfortunately for you, there is no resting involved on said day. Fortunately for Dazai, you look so cute as you writhe under him for hours on end. That'll get it through your pretty little skull not to work so much.
#god i just love needy obsessive dazai who cannot fathom that u have responsibilities#he's like i don't care abt mine! and u shouldn't either!#silly boy silly DOG#he hates when u work so much he needs to take care of youuuuuuuu#he's just like...... waking up plotting scheming#at his core dazai wants touch and intimacy more than anything and when he finds that in you its a whole new world for him#he loves u he wants u he NEEDS u#if u dont learn your lesson he will teach it to u#patheticzai my husband#he tires u out becayse the man is rabid and has the stamina of a demon#bungou stray dogs#dazai x reader#osamu dazai#bsd dazai#dazai x you#osamu dazai x reader#bsd x reader#dazai imagines#yandere dazai#ada dazai#yandere#gn reader#dazai#bungo stray dogs#osamu dazai fluff#dazai fluff
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Randomly consumed today by the thought of henghill cuddles, but like from a specific point in their relationship, like after they've only recently started laying in the same bed together.
It's something that takes them a long time to work up to; they both have nightmares, and yeah, Dan Heng is a Vidyadhara and he can heal himself beyond anything Boothill could accidentally do to him, but still. Boothill is made of metal now. He's heavy. It wouldn't take much, just a single flailing limb to cause some damage. He still gets up after Dan Heng falls asleep, and sneaks down into the guest cabin in one of the other cars.
But he'll lay in bed with Dan Heng until then. At first Boothill would always try to situate a blanket between them, because well. Metal isn't exactly pleasant to cuddle. But more and more lately, he's noticed Dan Heng keeps worming his way around their soft barrier and just kind of...rubbing his hand along him? Open palm up the curve of his side, across the planes of his chest, into the star-shape at his solar plexus, down the plates of his abdomen, back to his side again. Fingertips tap soundlessly against metal, or press into dents and divots, or smooth over old scars in the steel.
"Ya don't hav'ta do that, ya know."
"Does it bother you?"
Dan Heng's hand has already stopped, settling somewhere on the futon, neutral ground. Boothill clarifies that no, it doesn't bother him. But he can't feel any of it. He only knows he's doing it because he can see the motion out of the corner of his eye. Dan Heng doesn't need to go through the extra effort to do things for him like he would someone with a normal human body.
And Dan Heng goes quiet, just long enough that Boothill gets curious and turns to look at him over his shoulder. He has the cute little furrow between his brows, like when he's thinking.
And then he opens that pretty mouth of his and says, "That's alright, I think I'm doing it for myself, anyway" and Boothill nearly wheezes because wow, Dan Heng is almost never quite that honest when it comes to himself fdklsajlkd
Boothill cackles in surprise and asks point blank what he means, because what could he be getting out of that? Given the implied permission, Dan Heng's hand starts it's usual route again. Side, chest, solar plexus, abdomen, side. Boothill can practically hear him chewing on his words.
"I like that you're warm," is what he finally says, and Boothill suddenly feels like a bullet has just grazed something vital. "All the processes you run increase your temperature," Dan Heng's hand fans out across a span of steel and he holds it there, like he's soaking up the heat. "And your metal is smooth, it feels pleasant to touch," his fingertips move in circles, slip into a divot perfectly sized, rub back and forth. Boothill silently wills one of his cooling fans threatening to open up to stay closed.
"I like how you feel under my hands. That's all." Headshot! No recovery possible.
"...Suit yerself, then," and Boothill quickly turns back over before Dan Heng can see it in his face, how close he just hit to his heart.
#honkai star rail#henghill#bootheng#hsr dan heng#hsr boothill#pardon me I read a really really good porno this morning and was feeling inspired fjdklasjfkld#Look soft fuzzy super plush things are my faves- but nice smooth metal is so so nice too.#you know those fidget toys that are silky smooth material and they just have like a perfect little divot to rub the pad of your thumb into?#that's the kind of thing I'm getting at.#plus. plus!!#Dan Heng seems to dislike the cold. And we see why in 2.4 when he comments that the Shackling Prison is as cold as he remembers it.#And Dan Heng sleeps in the archive for a reason. he likes the sense of security in there.#it's a huge deal for him after being so violently hunted for so long#and I love the thought that Boothill reminds him of that. He's warm and he whirs and he's made of metal like some of the machinery in there#Dan Heng likes that regardless of whether he realizes why or not.#he likes to touch him. he just likes how he feels <3#and I think that would be something important to Boothill too because like. I don't think he HATES his body or anything.#but he didn't exactly get it under happy circumstances. and he does consider his human body as a toll that had to be paid.#he refers to any malfunctions as frightening to other people in one of his parlor car lines.#he refers to himself as a man already dead.#So I think it would hit a little harder than Boothill's prepared for to hear Dan Heng not only doesn't mind but even likes his body as it i#they're so sweet I love them so much uweh#hsr#dan heng#boothill#my fics
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âWhatâs up with the Spider-Man routine?â - Buck
âI donât know. I just did it.â - Eddie
#truly one of my favorite underrated buddie monents!!!#buddie#eddie diaz#evan buckley#bobby nash#like you have buck describing eddie as spider-man and not expect me to fall in love with these idiots#also the little shoulder grab like why do they always have to be touching each other I truly hate them#also bobby just staring at them the entire time like he does every single time heâs stuck with the idiots in love#lol itâs the fact I love Spider-Man so much also like the amount of times Iâve rewatched this scene alone is insane let me tell you#I even have a Spider-Man tattoo lol if anyone is reading the tags#evan buck buckley#edmundo diaz#buck x eddie#eddie x buck#911#911 abc#911 fox#911 on abc#911 on fox#911 season 2#911 s2#oliver stark#ryan guzman#peter krause
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i know my favourite characters HATE to see me comingâď¸âď¸
#user: gossippool đ#gossippool writes#fic: unhappy man syndrome#doesn't even scratch the surface of what i put crowley through... if he also has fourth wall breaking powers he would hate me so much#new chapter published by tomorrow latest i'm BEGGING myself WRITE FASTER#i also have another fic deadline to meet for a good omens bang that i haven't touched in months because i have no motivation for it#and two actual school deadlines due next week. save me#also am i the only bitch in this district who writes in the default arial font#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#deadpool#wade wilson
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ârequiem for methuselahâ crazy ass episode for many reasons. Kirk is being fully insane, like I donât actually think, even controlling for how quickly and easily and readily he seems to fall in love with anybody at the slightest encouragement, that heâd go that bonkers for that android woman he just met while everyone on the ship was this close to dying, but thatâs neither here nor there, because in the background youâve got an equally but much more subtly insane episode for Spock, who extremely uncharacteristically admits to experiencing an emotion (or nearly experiencing, whatever) and that emotion is ENVY of all things. And then spends the rest of the episode warning Kirk away from this new love interest (something that doesnât usually happen, even when Kirk has very inadvisable love interests) and is, in the end, the person who accurately identifies that Raynaâs competing love for Kirk and Flint is ultimately what overwhelms and destroys her with the most killer line in maybe history???
And then to wrap it up we get an equally uncharacteristic sort of denouement scene (TOS loooves to cut an episode off right after the actual climax, leaving little time for falling action or character reflection, or to stick a sitcom-y button on the end where the gang all smiles and laughs at their misadventures and everything resets to zero, which is not a criticism, itâs just the style of that era of tv, honestly) where Kirk is literally miserable over Raynaâs death (again, kind of unusual for a lot of his love interests, he tends to be able to move on pretty quickly) and Spock goes to see him and he falls asleep right in front of Spock (also odd) and then when Bones comes in to give the final word on Flint, Spock waves him off from waking the Captain (tender) and Bones gives him that awful speech about how itâs sadder that Spock canât even imagine the love Kirk felt for this random android woman than it is that Kirk lost her in the first place (debatable but also rude) and how his great tragedy is that he canât love at all like they can and how all he wishes is that Kirk could forget about all of this and move on. AND THEN, to have Bones leave and Spock go over to Kirk and very gently, tenderly, reluctantly touch him and put his hand to his forehead and tell him to forget and HAVE THAT BE THE END OF THE EPISODE??? What am I supposed to do with that??
#âthe joys of love made her human. the agonies of love destroyed herâ hUH. What a cool line.#hope it doesnât become some sort ofâŚthesis statement for you or something SPOCK#listen my number one beef with the way they write bones is that they just make him completely mischaracterize everything to suit the plot#this man is not an idiot he KNOWS Spock has emotions and just suppresses them#youâre going to tell me heâs been on that ship with Spock for years and thinks he feels no love whatsoever for anyone???#like even after what happened in the empath and in that episode where McCoy thought he was dying#he knows Spock loves people!!! COME ON#does he really just mean romantic love?? thatâs so boring WRITE HIM BETTER#also theyâre banking a lot on people remembering what the Vulcan mind meld is for that last bit#like I know it comes up a lot butâŚthis is 1968 or whatever. They donât have this shit on dvd to rewatch#youâre counting on really dedicated fan memory here or on people catching reruns#because otherwise it just looks like Spock waiting to be alone to touch Kirk as tenderly as possible and pray he forgets this woman#truly whatâs going on#anyway I kind of hated this episode#like quite frankly there was too much going on#are androids people? would Kirk fall in love that hard that quickly and choose it over the safety of his crew?#why wasnt the illness ravaging the crew a bigger deal??#they didnât even get into WHY flint was immortal#he was just a regular human and apparently the ONLY one who was granted immortality by the earthâs atmosphere#leaving aside the very creepy and very early born sexy yesterday trope going on throughout#but it was a really good Spock episode if you justâŚ.dont look at anything elseâŚ.#the writer for this one also did Day of the Dove and Mirror Mirror which explains a LOT#two other episodes that are interesting for the character dynamics but really chaotic plot wise#anyway imagine saying to Spockâs face that he has no idea what love can drive a man to do#one has to laugh#tos#star trek#as alwaysâŚ. Iâm sorry that Iâm Like This
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sorry, just had to get this off my chest but like
colin, a young and attractive guy, supposedly having a threesome and watching a sex show performed by professionals whom he pays for their service when he is single and exploring what he does and doesn't like is bad for penelope, somehow
but debling a 30+ year old man feeling all up on her waist in public when she is a teenager and he has power and privilege over her and has known her for a grand total of like a week and a half is good, somehow
like this fandom has legit called Colin, a 22 year old man with like. . .2 UNCONFIRMED sexual interactions in the past a groomer for getting with Penelope and maybe introducing her to his interests (after spending YEARS listening to her and cherishing her and thinking she's fantastic) but will root on the actual 30+ year old man with an enormous power imbalance over her via his money and title to have his way with her in a backroom somewhere after knowing her for like a month
make it make sense please
#if that 30+ year old man doesn't get his grubby paws off that teenager i will start blasting#anti debling#polin#one of these men is actively being weird with her and it isn't colin#'oh but he's courting her openly' he is feeling up on her in broad daylight in a time when so much as touching HANDS was scandalous#he is a 30 year old guy who showed up THIS YEAR with an enormous power imbalance between him and this 19 year old woman#she is a third daughter in an unpopular family who has to marry well to survive and he is a lord from out of town#looking for a wife and immediately went for the unpopular girl standing off to the side fidgeting with no one else paying attention to her#and y'all are out here DROOLING for it#i do NOT understand!!!!#idk he gives me the ick#and don't come at me about 'well that was normal for the time!!!'#i hated it when anthony did it to edwina i hated it when simon did it to daphne and i hate that fife did it with goring#it is WEIRD to be a wealthy and powerful man with a title going for a teenager#like do y'all think DEBLING is a virgin??? really
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its a really big bummer to see the mass success of bg3, to see how many artists and players alike have enjoyed this game and yet, somehow, almost every time, wyll is magically not mentioned or drawn, featured in a video, hes not adored or hated
so far the fandom just generally acts like hes not even there. and it makes me sad to see the single black companion get this level of people ignoring him, his arc, his personality, even just people disliking or hating him
instead the only thing that caught any wind was how quickly a mod came out to make wyll white. how fucking sad.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#look i know there are others who also like wyll i know#but its the sheer level where he is fully ignored as a character that absolutely sends me#ive seen ppl rage at hating gale and shadowheart- ive seen the adoration for karlach and astarion#but theres no sense of emotion for wyll#its like people just ... i dunno i doubt its purposeful but it just /feels/ like racism#theres only one black man - the rest of your companions are white - and hes the ONLY ONE out of the ENTIRE PARTY thats just ignored?#hes such a goofball - yet he takes himself so seriously - his romance scenes were so touching - theres so much to wyll ...#karlach and wyll are such a good pair to have running together bc they are both good people who want to do good#i just ... i dunno. makes my heart hurt to see the only black character get shoved into oblivion
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Iâm sorry I genuinely cannotttttt understand how some ppl bash joe even in a joking manner. Like the poor guy did nothing wrong (that we know of) but so many ppl are making such snide remarks by comparing him to Travis which is not only condescending but actually kind of mean! HELLO did we listen to the same reputation album??? You canât praise Travis for letting Taylor bejeweled and then rip joe to shreds in the same breath when joe was the one there for her in a clearly difficult and trying time in her life
#the ripping to shreds is a little exaggerated cuz thereâs not that much vitriol behind it#but I just find the callous attitude to be so disgusting and insincere#like the love for Travis is sooo much rn I canât imagine ppl hating him if they broke up#but I couldnât imagine that for joe either#and another thing I think has to do with how public they are which is fine#but because ppl see so much physical proof of Travis being loving it somehow automatically proves joe wasnt#he was a private man! let him be!!#and if that wasnât smth Taylor liked/struggled with she dealt with it like the grown woman she is#Iâm not saying she didnât face any kind of emotional stress in that r/ship#but if she did/going off of her songs she dealt with it like an adult#and now that chapters closed and ofc we can still talk abt joe but the subtle menace towards him is sooo immature#like some ppl rlly need to grow up/touch grass#and Iâm not hating on travis like him not being there in 2016 is not a dig towards him#itâs just pointing out who WAS there which a lot of ppl seem to be forgetting#joe alwyn#travis kelce#taylor swift
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actually so evil how much of hal's internal world gets obliterated with the rewriting of his relationships with jessica and martin.
#hal jordan#empyrean posting#ok going in the tags because im not actually v confident in my understanding of his character. i read all of his 80s/90s stuff but forgot#90% of it but ANYWAY.#so much of him just does not make sense with how geoff johns characterises him and his relationships with his parents particularly the#parallax stuff simply because of how much his relationship with the guardians and their apathy/'betrayal' is influenced by hal's original#relationship with his dad. like at its heart it's pretty much the same dynamic in how hal blindly trusts and sort of idolises the guardians#despite their repeated infractions in hope of... something in return just as he had with his father and the abuse he suffered at martin's#hands. that's what makes his anger at the guardians make sense when it does show itself because the relationship parallel didn't stop there.#as with martin hal gets nothing for his devotion. he gets nothing for doing everything that's asked of him and more and it ends the same way#too: with a man in the sky burning like a newborn star. and you lose so much of that nuance and intrigue behind that if you just make#jessica the 'bad one' because!!! you cheapen it!!!!#the whole idea of hal is that he has his father's face but his mother's scars#(to me). in the sense that they both reacted to martin the same way with that cognisance of who he was as a man yet inability to pull away#because... love. both the love they had for him and the conviction that he did or could love them too. and jessica arguably did eventually#but also she didnt did she? because she held onto that notion of love till the very end. the few scraps she had she ballooned outwards until#they became the whole. but hal didnt have even that and he spent his whole life chasing it & running away from wanting it at the same time#like i think there's something so interesting to the fact that he had to be convinced that flying was what he wanted to do. how much of that#was touched by his father? the fear that he was already too much like him than he could bear to be? he already had his face now he had his#dreams and longing for the sky. how much more could he have before he began repeating the cycle?#and at the end he even had his father's death. burning in the clouds. like there's so much there and that's not even touching on how it#impacts his relationships with other heroes. not just in the sense of why did kyle clark and diana get to keep their close yet complex#relationships with their moms when hal had to lose his (although yeah why did they) but also just how he lets himself come across to them.#because it's on purpose right? that he lets them think his reflection of his father is born out of unadulterated love for a man worthy of it#? he has his father's job he wears his father's jacket he smiles his father's smile. what else are they supposed to think.#and isnt that interesting!!! that this man who is so committed to being good & just can lie so casually to people he thinks of as friends!!!#can you see how that might be his mother through and through!!! in how she might have glossed over the abuse to other people and herself!!!#can you see how in spite of it all he might want to be perceived as his father that paragon of masculinity and resent that he is not!!!#do you understand how everything he loves has been poisoned!!! im thinking of that scene where he tells bruce about watching martin die &#wouldnt it have been so much more interesting through this lens. how he is both revealing & obfuscating at once. i hate the change sm
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emma made me viscerally uncomfortable from season 3-6 and the reason is because it was like watching a barbarian multiclass as a cleric. like girl stop with the magical energy blasts!! just hit him with your sword!!! punch him in the face!!!!
#mostly a joke#i managed to tolerate and accept it#in the way midas gets the gold touch and elsa and ingrid get ice powers i wish other magic users had distinguished styles from one another#rather than âuses fire and rips out heartsâ âdoesn't use fire or rips out heartsâ ârumpelstiltskin and whatever the fuck he's got going onâ#like from a writing standpoint it makes SENSE that cora regina and zelena all have very similar styles#they were all taught by the same man#and regina was heavily influenced by cora in all that heart stealing#and emma learnt from regina#but come on!! give them some kind of magical signature!!#rumple's was spinning gold#regina's was yeeting fireballs#cora's was pulling hearts#but emma and zelena should have been so much more distinct!! they were both running on instinct like let them have wild magic!!#and no i DON'T count emma and regina straight up blasting opposite coloured lights. that shit is lazy and i won't stand for it#this is why i hate soft magic systems#ouat#once upon a time#emma swan
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okay so @quirkle2 sent me an ask about the aftermath of the Teru vs. Mob fight, and I went and wrote out the whole fight in the ask. I'm moving it to this post so that I can answer the Actual Question in the Actual Ask like a normal person. anyway here you go
Teru's Series of Really Bad Decisions
or, How Mob Came Out Of the Teru vs. Mob Fight Completely Unscathed
So here's the thing. Mob's zombie disease colony is pretty invested in keeping its host alive, so even while the fight is happening, he's healing really fast. And despite his top-dog persona, Teru doesn't actually enjoy injuring people. (The sensation of touching another person bothers himâthat's why most of his attacks are things like slaps or punches, where he's only in contact with people for a moment before the force of the blow shoves them away. He'll kill or torture people, but he subtly avoids extended contact with them while doing so. It makes him nervous to resort to hands-on violence, because that's how a zombie fights and for his own survival, Teru HAS to act like he's above zombie behavior.)
So it takes Teru a while to work himself up to the point of actually committing to injuring Mob. At first, Teru is just punching him in the chest and stomach, shoving him (he pushes him into the school swimming pool at one point and then has to pull him back out because Mob never learned to swim and is drowning. major L for Teru's pride), taunting him, using blunt force and watching in disbelief while the other boy just takes it and breathes through the pain. He expected Mob to hit back right away, and then Teru would use a bit more strength and intimidate his opponent so much that he'd admit Teru's strength is way beyond him and then they'd be on amicable terms. But that doesn't happen.
Also, Dimple isn't back yet in this AU, so the fight takes place mostly in silence, which weirds Teru out. He's used to fighting with people yelling and screaming around him, and hearing nothing but pained noises and a few confused questions out of his opponent really bothers Teru. He grabs Mob and shakes him, asking why won't you fight back??. He's definitely like Teru! he's got the misty eyes and he's breathing out miasma and he has the healing ability to jerk his arms free of the ropes he was tied with and have the raw rope-scrapes on his arms heal over a minute later, but he won't! fight! back!!
Meanwhile, as Teru is shaking him by the shirt-collars, Mob is having flashbacks to his life wandering as a zombie before the cure. He's remembering Dimple clearer than he ever has before, and he's embracing those memories for once, clinging to his guilt over (he suspects) killing his friend. And, remembering how nice Dimple was to him and Ritsu, how Dimple shared strawberries with them, how he would coax Mob out of the rain, how Dimple reached for Mob's face while Mob's teeth were closing in his armâhe stares at Teru with all the loathing he feels toward himself, for killing Dimple.
Teru says, "What's with that look?"
Mob says, "I was just wondering, why do you feel the need to hurt people who are just trying to live? Do you think you have to, because you're a zombie?"
And Teru, who tries not to think of himself as a zombie, goes, "What?"
"Oh, I was just thinkingâthere was someone I knew who was a pretty good guyâcompared to you. And I hurt him."
That makes Teru drop Mob like a hot potato. He doesn't want to fight like a zombie but he has to get this hypocrite who hurt his own friend and refuses to fight him to DO somethingâand they happen to be in the home ec room, right by the gas-powered generator for the home ec equipment, so Teru causes a gas explosion on purpose and blocks the door with his body, trying to force Mob to fight his way out to avoid burning alive. That's how Teru ends up losing his perfect hairâhe may be special but he's still got zombie disease, his pain receptors don't work right and Mob is coughing too hard in the smoke to warn Teru that the fire ran along the ceiling and got to Teru's hair. The fire is how Mob's clothes get singed. He's not seriously burned, at least not by the time Teru sees him next (Teru rushed to the swimming pool when he realized his hair was on fire), but he's shaken and coughing and smells like smoke.
They both stumble out of the burning school building. Mob has his Moment Of Realization and correctly guesses that Teru's life is completely empty; Teru's acting like this because he's trying to ignore that he's a zombie and has no real friends because everyone is scared of him, and Teru isn't making any effort to live like a person instead of a monster.
That's when Teru just straight-up strangles Mob, throwing away his determination not to fight like a zombie. Mob has already ruined Teru's untouchable appearance and likely condemned Teru to being shot by his own people for causing all this property damage. Teru's life as a human is over already, he thinks. Mob refuses to fight back, passes out, ???% appears, you know how it goes.
And get this: Mob's zombie disease colony has expended a lot of its energy already (consuming its own drones for sheer power) to heal Mob from the blows and the burns, so when ???% puts his body into high gear, the colony registers EMERGENCY CONDITIONS and starts replenishing its energy using anything availableâthe colony deploys its own disease drones into the entire surrounding area and consumes all of the miasma in the air and water and, STILL not having enough energy for this, dives into Teru's body and eats 90% of Teru's colony. This is the equivalent of ???% absorbing all of the energy in the atmosphere AND Teru's psychic powers, which always makes me hold my breath in canon.
Teru can see this happening, by the way. Like Mob, he can sense the presence of zombie disease in all forms. He senses Kageyama's disease colony suddenly exploding from his body and eating all of the colonies in the area. what a sight to behold.
Anyway, so, yeah, Mob then wakes up with his body fully healed, in front of a burning school building, sensing absolute emptiness all around him.
He can't fix the school building. Not in this au. All he can do is kneel down and cry. He failed to change. He thought he was better now, he thought that he was in control of himself now, but he did it againâhe hurt someone on accident again.
And then Teru stumbles over to him with his hip still spasming from where ???% threw him by his leg and goes, "Kageyama, you were right... without our power, we have nothing..."
and Mob looks up to see people stirring around them, and Teru is alive, he didn't kill Teru, he didn't kill anyone, and he goes back to Salt with the Body Improvement Club in a kind of shell-shocked daze.
#my zombie au#long post#tw fire#tw burns#tw violence#there is fire involved in this fight and it might be disturbing! read at your own discretion!#I've changed the Teru fight lore slightly from last timeâI hope it's not too jarring#I had a Lot of fun reimagining the Teru-Mob Fight as a zombie thing. what is the equivalent of resorting to muscles over powers#when the equivalent of powers in this AU is physical strength?? well turns out the answer is Teru resorting to zombie-style brawling#(e.g. just GRABBING Mob)#idk man I just find that fight fascinating in canon#it's such a long fight scene and it's so WEIRD it's so psychologically complex and Teru keeps having to escalate#because his worldview will not allow him to accept that anything other than Winning is acceptable#ALSO. touch starved Teru so real (but it's how touch starvation works in my experience: Ouch Touch Too Much Bad Avoid Contact)#touch starved but Teru's reaction to the starvation is ''I will fight by punching people not by manhandling them''#the touch starvation and Teru's zombie self-image issues are a huge part of why Mob escapes without serious injury#because Teru isn't gonna *bite* him. or rip him limb from limb or remove chunks of him. he hates the idea of that#he just wants to exchange a few blows!! he wants them both to be fine in the end! and he doesn't want to touch him!!#YEAH
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touchstarved is such a sick twisted game. i'm not talking abt the plot or theme at all that's all good and dandy. i mean the way that it's possessed my soul and body.
i seriously need and want all five of them. to a sickly degree. i don't wanna have to pick a route. i want five lovers. yea some of them hate each other but i'm not making them hang out it's fine.
tack on a 2 year wait for the full release and it's only a matter of time before i'm hysterical
#i could go on#kuras is objectively the perfect man#vere is my gayest and evilest alter ego and i am in love with him#and just like vere i too am compelled to start purring when ais is around#dont get me fucking started on mhin i can't get into it#mhin is genuinely GENUINELY the love of my life in the most serious way#they don't get showered with the love they deserve on this platform and i fucking love mhin so much#leander like aint my type traditionally but smthn bout him#the mageness the touching#he's speaking to me in a way i couldn't have predicted#i hate this fucking game its a violent illness in my head#the power of queer poc creatives is unmatched#touchstarved#touchstarved game
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roleplay idea: barton's trying to say this BS that he's 'good at processing grief' when your muse was a witness to the absolute rage-filled and deranged rampage that barton went on after julien was killed by the joker in which he brutally hurt all but one of his henchmen (he killed the last one because he told him he was 'crazy' and that he 'better kill him, or he was going to tell his boss that barton had been there' and he literally just snapped, went 'you know what, i think i will kill you AND also let the joker know i killed you so he knows to never come near my family again' then killed him. like HUHHH?) at the time with your muse being like this
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#ooc post.#yeahhh đ man i wish i was joking about this you all but he really did put like three men in the hospital and killed one of them so...#he is NOT good at processing grief at all SKSKS and yeah the fact that they chose to ally themselves with the joker probably does say-#something about their own character but i don't condone violence or murder so it's still wrong even if they were... terrible đŤ #no but barton was honestly looking for someone else to blame besides himself for julien's death so he basically went to all of these-#henchmen and grilled them + asked them all whether they knew anything about how the joker was planning to kill his son#anddd when they all answered him with a 'no' was when thing's uhhh. Got violent đŹ like just imagine being one of barton's kids-#and mourning the loss of your brother in a normal albeit sad way on your own but then barton comes back home covered in blood-#+ it's obviously not his... like i don't even know if i'd want to ask him what the hell he just did because while barton is in mourning-#or grieving you do NOT want to be near him if you are the one that caused the death in question because you will get your-#shit rocked let me tell you â ď¸ like the only reason why barton didn't kill the joker himself is BC he knew that that would attract-#batman's ire like nothing else and he does NOT want that smoke as much as barton hates him LMAO but DC muses... just to let you know-#or really any type of muse that interacts with him but those who are close to him in particular i would not touch a hair on any of his#family members head unless you want to have someone after you + i swear i'm not saying that to be edgy or anything BC ever since i#first mentioned that barton is always this đ¤ close to going off of the deep end even more than he already is i was not joking at all ASDFGH#tw: mentions of violence#tw: mentions of murder#tw: mentions of child death
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will forever blow my mind how ppl think they could convince me that Naruto has EVER bathed in his entire LIFE. y'all are being brainwashed by fake news lmao ask @sasukeprime I'm sure he's tasted the truth. Don't let the CGI fool you!! For people who hate AI art, y'all being real hypocritical when it comes to visuals of Naruto applying basic hygeine...
#naruto uzumaki does not bathe#and i put that on my momma#mans doesnt even drink water. thats why gaara likes him so much.#only liquids hes ever touched were his amniotic fluid & ramen broth (unsurprisingly they are both actually the same liquid)#anime#naruto#uzumaki naruto#naruto uzumaki#naruto shippuden#anime memes#naruto memes#i hate my mother btw (it is 1:26am)#gremlin hours#ichiraku ramen
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having a balkan father should qualify you for whatever benefits staunch conservatives think us veterans deserve
#i just wanted some fucking ice cream and then this man decided that actually the fact that we made a full batch of ice cream for all family#members did not matter and decided to eat all of it himself and then he only left a small piece back in the freezer and i will not fucking#touch that out of principle because he ate directly out of the container like the degenerate that he is#i hate him so much he gorges on food like some disgusting pig you literally need to race him if you want to eat anything in this house#ura.txt
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